Friday, May 9, 2014

5k's, repentance, and the parable of the 10 virgins

Did I tell you that I've registered for my first 5K? I mean, this is my VERY first 5K, in the history of ever. I am the girl who has the hardest time running even in high school. Why is that you ask? Well, I have short stocky legs, and big boobs. I've always been terrible at running. Plus I was a major klutz in high school. Now, back to the 5k, it's in June. Yup you read that right, I am about a month away from this craziness! I have a confession to make... 

I haven't been training. (at least as consistently as I should be)

This means that I have a month to train for what I would consider one of the biggest athletic moments of my life-- WHY AM I NOT TRAINING FOR THIS?! Well I can give you an excuse as to why. I wake up at 6, get ready for work, work 7-4, I'm home by 4:45 (If traffic is nice), then at that point I'm so danged tired that I can barely make dinner, I then want to try and play with Emma before she passes out for the night, do house chores, etc, then I try to go to bed at a decent hour, and do it all again. Now, I know how the old saying goes, "A body in rest will stay in rest and a body in motion will stay in motion."

 So why am I procrastinating this?

Let's stop the marathon rant for a minute and talk about repentance (I promise this is going somewhere)

Repentance is defined by Google as:
"Repentance is the activity of reviewing one's actions and feeling contrition or regret for past wrongs. It generally involves a commitment to personal change and resolving to live a more responsible and humane life."

The second coming is going to happen someday, we don't know when this will be, however we have been warned to "not procrastinate the day of [our] repentance". 

I have had a really bad habit for the last few years of not being consistent in my scripture study and prayer, which has down-slided into lack of church attendance, which has led to less temple attendance. The wicked snowball as I like to call it. 

March 21, 2014, one of my best friends from high school, Rhett, passed away. He was only 3 months older than me. I will admit he and I had lost touch after Tyler and I got married. This amazing young man helped me through so much in my teenage years. When I found out he had passed I was devastated for his family and loved ones. He had so much future ahead of him. It was completely unexpected. At the funeral services as I was listening to the stories of this amazing young man's faith and testimony of the gospel I realized, if my days ended right here and now, what all would I have to take with me to the other side to repent of there? Why would I want to take those things with me?

Why am I procrastinating on this? (told you we were getting somewhere!)

"As the wise virgins emphasized properly, each of us must “buy for ourselves.” These inspired women were not describing a business transaction; rather, they were emphasizing our individual responsibility to keep our lamp of testimony burning and to obtain an ample supply of the oil of conversion. This precious oil is acquired one drop at a time—“line upon line [and] precept upon precept” (2 Nephi 28:30), patiently and persistently. No shortcut is available; no last-minute flurry of preparation is possible." -- Elder David A. Bednar

Later after my friend had passed away his Dad posted on his Facebook page something Rhett kept on his wall in his dorm:

"Always keep growing"

I have come to realize in the last few weeks that you don't grow into this amazing spiritual self over night, or with a "last minute flurry of preparation", for this

One small act upon another act is what fills our lamps. Repenting and forsaking bad habits, and wicked snowballs is a good place to start. 

I will try to "run" (probably mostly walk) this 5k that I will be trying to "catch up" on training for. During the 5k I will be remembering that if I don't repent and forsake those things in my life that need fixing, then the pain I'm experiencing in my mortal body will be a lot worse on the other side of the veil.

Let us always keep growing. Let us not put off our training for the eternities because you can't make up for that time once it's gone.

Excuse me while I go lace up my sneakers to go for a run, followed after a quick prayer and scripture study! :)