Monday, August 31, 2015


Tempest: a violent windstorm, especially one with rain, hail, or snow. The last year I’ve felt like I’ve been living in a consistent tempest. This tempest has made me feel like at times I was drowning. Between our life consistently changing, Going from being the full time bread winner to being with Emma while we get the move sorted out, Tyler starting the Master's program, me figuring out what my next step is after quitting my job, being a Mom, and everything in between, it just seems like I’m hanging onto a life raft and wave after wave keeps hitting me. I tried everything to see why this was happening. Prayer, scripture study, church attendance, consistent temple attendance, serving others, everything. Then during one of the biggest waves, I came across this quote:

Right away I realized -- I have been praying for the wrong thing here! I have been praying for Heavenly Father to change my circumstances, instead of praying for Him to help me through them and to find joy in them. How much better my perspective on this last year had been if I had focused on that instead? Probably a lot better. The Lord will always have a plan for us, an even bigger one than we can possibly imagine. If we just put our faith in Him, He will help us through. Find joy in your journey. Try to look at the positive, even if it is something as simple as, "The sun is shining today!" Looking at the positive will help you realize that life really isn't that bad. Be grateful to your creator for everything you have, and you will make it through. Not only will you make it through, but you will thrive through it and learn what you need to.

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Creative Block

I've been gone for a while, and I realize this. I've been putting off writing for a while. I have a ton of ideas to write about, so that hasn't been the issue. The issue is that I got hurt. I was called out for being honest by quite a few people, and that put a creative block in my way. I can say that I didn't expect that, but life goes on.

I can tell you that I am not perfect. Just in case you needed a reminder of how imperfect I am, well... we can talk about a lot of those imperfections later. What I write about is mostly for me, and lessons that I've learned. It's also a way of journaling to write my experiences to keep for my kiddos (because yes, I do c+p these posts into a journal I've been keeping for them). I write the blog for myself. I didn't expect people to actually read this, but I guess it's kind of a thing now, so I'm going to keep at it. Yes there may be times that I will post something that I may not practicing myself. Yeah, I know, kind of hypocritical, but I'm working on it. That's why I'm posting about it, because I've done research on it and I feel a certain way on it, and I'm wanting to put that change in my life. I will keep being honest. I'm not going to apologize for being me, because at this point in my self discovery journey, it would be a step back, which I've taken too many of those for an easy thing like this.

So get used to my honesty... it's here to stay. :) (sorry for the rant, I will get off of it now) 

So I'm back from outer space!  to write some more on life happenings with us, and also my "deep thoughts" (I'll try not to do those too often, unless those are your favorites, or if I have a really enlightening week. haha!)

Right now we are packing up our home of 3 years and moving. We are moving into student housing! It's going to be a change, but a good one. We are excited for Emma to be in a neighborhood with kids her age, and to also be in a neighborhood where we will have people in the same place as us. We've liked this little apartment, and at times I will miss it, especially when I have to lug the groceries all the way to our apartment door from the parking lot instead of just right inside from our car port haha! (Problems of having a great apartment, I know)

I wanted to write to let others know though, that if you're experiencing a creative block of some kind, to do some meditation. Think about why you're blocked, and do some journaling. You might find some things that will surprise you, including how amazing you are.